Saying Goodbye to 2014

Dec 29, 2014

I know I've been a little absent from my blog these past few weeks and I won't even bother making an excuse. I just haven't felt like writing lately. With the holidays and the chaos of my life in general it just wasn't happening and I'm fine with that. I feel like so much has happened in the past 2-3 months that I still haven't really wrapped my head around but it's okay with me. It'll all make sense when it's meant to.

I popped back in today though because the New Year is quickly approaching and I couldn't be more excited to put 2014 behind me and start fresh. I feel like the coming year has great things in store for me and my little and I really just can't wait to see what those things are. I've already given a little sneak peak into my 2015 Goals for the year here and I'd like to delve a little deeper into that, but first I feel like I should take a look back at 2014 and try to hit a few of the high/low points. I doubt I'll do it any justice but all a girl can do is try, right?

2014 was a year of enormous change and growth for me. It was like starting a road trip in the worst storm imaginable, enduring more than one person's share of flat tires and empty gas tanks, only to end at the corner of a wonderful calm and what now?

2014 has also very much been a year of soul searching and figuring out what I really want out of life. I spent over 2 years in a relationship with someone who's perspective and ideals were very different from my own and I grew too attuned to his way of thinking. I needed to find myself again; so that's what I spent most of my energy doing. I know damn well that I am not even remotely close to the same person I was at this time last year, and I love it. People came and went from my life; some I lost that I wish I hadn't and some stuck around when I wish they would've just left. Regardless though, it is what it is. Bridges burned and lessons learned? Maybe.

The year started off more than a little rocky. I was living at my mom's house with Evelyn and her dad and still struggling to make ends meet. I found myself living life in the wrong story; nothing felt right. I hated the way my life was going and I was determined to make a change, so I did. I got a job serving and made just enough for Evelyn and I to get our own place in April. And then by some serious dumb luck (or fate? Who knows.) I was referred to an amazing job opportunity in May and started work the day after Memorial Day. It couldn't have come at a better time as Evelyn's father and I had finally called it quits after a completely miserable 2 years. Why I let things get that bad, I'll never understand. But this new job gave me the confidence I needed and the paycheck to assure me that I really could do this single mom thing and it would be just fine. Better, even.

The summer went by as quickly as ever, with both Evelyn and myself celebrating our birthdays + Evelyn's very first beach trip! (literally the week after I started my new job).  Our newest addition, Kingsley came to us labor day weekend and we have loved him ever since; even if he is overly enthusiastic when I have company over...

And then there was Fall. I started getting back in touch with old friends and finally feeling like myself again. There were still some things that needed to be taken care of from my past but I think I handled them well enough. I think this is the time I finally began to feel more settled. Things were beginning to fall into place in mine and Evelyn's new life. We were set in our routine, and the stress was lifted a bit.

But then of course the holidays hit and I found comfort hiding in the calm of my own little corner of the world for a while to try and avoid the chaos. It worked some days, others - not so much. But I'm happy to report that we made it through in one piece ;)

The last few weeks of this year I've spent reflecting on how far I've come and how far I'd still like to go in the coming year. I'm working on developing new habits to bring with me into the New Year that will take the place of old habits better left behind me. For example, I've recently picked up journaling to help me keep my thoughts somewhat unscrambled and to get some things out of my head that do not belong on the internet for all to see. It's been therapeutic and I'm hoping to make more time for this new hobby in 2015.

Ya know, this post was originally meant to be about my goals for 2015 but hey, when do things ever go as planned? ;) I suppose I'll have to save those for another post and I'll be seeing you lovelies again soon.

Until then,


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